C'est La Vie..embrace it

How far have you walked for men who've never held your feet in their laps? How often have you bartered with bone, only to sell yourself short? Why do you find the unavailable so alluring? Where did it begin? What went wrong? And who made you feel so worthless? If they wanted you, wouldn't they have chosen you? All this time, you were begging for love silently, thinking they couldn't hear you, but they smelt it on you, you must have known that they could taste the desperate on your skin? And what about the others that would do anything for you, why did you make them love you until you could not stand it? How are you both of these women, both flighty and needful? Where did you learn this, to want what does not want you? Where did you learn this, to leave those that want to stay? 

There is nothing rebellious about loving someone who can't love you.

-Warsan Shire.

~Snow~

Be like the snow....melting away..thus clearing yourself of yourself..

People talk about closure..but I don't buy it. Once someone blasts a hole in your life, it tends to stay.

|| Time heals everything ||
..a very popular sentence indeed..but is time enough for all the scars hidden deep inside your heart?

All the moments where you cried yourself to sleep..moments where you couldn't stop yourself from an outburst, yet controlled it just so that nobody sees you..moments where you had to lie to your mother regarding what is making your appetite so low..and is making you sleep so much..moments where you were judged wrongly by the closest person in your life..when you tended to stare half of the time in the open...and imagining your reaction to the conversations that may never happen again..

'Over thinker' they call you? But if faced with the same situation, would they show a similar emotional endurance?

|| Forgive and Forget || ....but alas people know not how to forget things that affect them deeply. and thus cringe at the thought of it every single time..because wanting to forget things only makes them remember those further more..

Once inflicted, you tend to stay with the healed wounds.....it is acceptance that keeps you moving...the constant lies that you tell yourself about how good your life is ..and more or less everyone tends to survive..